Words

 

When I’m angry or in love, I feel it in my teeth.
Strange harmonic buzzing.
Cuts through my hands.
My jaw.
My breast bone.
For a long time I fought it. Resisted. Held up my fists.
Tried to hold the current. Foolish.
I found peace in distortion. A chaos I could control.
Turned the drums up real loud hoping they could shock me back in.
Break the numbness.
Let the bright lights drag me out.
Do you fear what’s underneath? Is your jaw wound tight?
Do you ever want to bite?
And what if you did?
Sink your gums into a shoulder.
Of a lover.
Of a day.
Of a year.
We were 18. We were 23. I’m 27 now.
Here’s all I have. It’s yours to take.
Love. Hate. Anger. Feral joy.
This is the story of what happened when I finally gave in.

Can you let go?
Can you feel it all?
Can you –

Maggie Rogers, 2022


 

Overdrive

My love, would you walk for hours just to talk. 'cause you did it better when you were on my side. Covered in leather. Now you’re in overdrive. Oh, young were we. But I'm sick of saying you made me weak at the knees. 'cause I was a runner and I could go for miles. Gave me a reason. Now I'm in overdrive. I don't wanna do this again if you’re gonna break my heart. I'm tearing at the seams. Can't believe that it's gotta be this hard. You told me that I was all you could see. But you kept me in the dark. And put me in overdrive.

That's Where I Am

I found a reason to wake up. Coffee in my cup. Start a new day. Wish we could do this forever and never remember mistakes that we made. I told you I loved you when we were just friends. You kept me waiting and I hated you then. Gave it a few years. You settled your debts. But I never got over the secrets I kept. It all works out in the end. Wherever you go that’s where I am. Boulders turn into sand. Wherever you go thats where I am. Now when I wait in your doorway covered in flowers, I think of her. The woman that you once dated. I couldn’t relate to her glitter and furs. Who were you then? And who is she now? Did she know that we were together somehow? You never touched me, but I felt you everywhere. It all works out in the end. Wherever you go that's where I am. Even boulders turn into sand. Wherever you go that's where I am. No I’ll never find another. No one else can do it better. When we’re together it feels like heaven. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. No, I’ll never find another. No one else can do it better. When we’re together it feels like heaven. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. It all works out in the end. Wherever you go that's where I am. Even boulders turn into sand. Wherever you go that's where I am. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. That's where I am. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. That's where I am. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. That's where I am.

Want Want

You’re better than the man I knew when we were in a band and you wouldn’t flinch and wouldn’t make a move. Try to forget the rest as I watch you get undressed. Pray to god this won’t be a mess. And I keep running away, but when I leave you pull me in again. Oh, here we go. I hold my breath and count the times I walked my feet up to the line. Oh, we both know. If you want want what you want want then you want it. Can’t hide what you desire once you’re on it. Can’t fake what you can’t break up with ooh. If you understand that a few years won’t erase it. Might die if you can’t live just to taste it. Want want what you want want then you want it and I want you. Oh, can we take this slow? Everybody’s always known, but I didn’t want to admit that when we’re cheek to cheek I feel it in my teeth and it’s too good to resist. And I keep running away but when I leave you pull me in again. Oh, we both know. If you want want what you want want then you want it. Can’t hide what you desire once you’re on it. Can’t fake what you can’t break up with. If you understand that a few years won’t erase it. Might die if you can’t live just to taste it. Want want what you want want then you want it. If you want want what you want want then you want it. Can’t hide what you desire once you’re on it. Can’t fake what you can’t break up with. If you understand that a few years won’t erase it. Might die if you can’t live just to taste it. Want want what you want want then you want it. Oh and if you got a moment I want on it. Want want on it on it and if you got another hour I want all of it. Don’t want to wait another moment. I want on it want want on it on it. Don’t want to wait another hour I want all of it. Want. Want. Want.

Anywhere With You

Walked in straight away and slammed the door last night. I caught you on the couch. You were having a fright all alone. With the TV on. Clothes strewn on the floor. I got down on my knees. You told me everything that you wanted to be. All along. Was it wrong? And I said “Listen oh I know its been a long long year. But I think we should go and get you out of here. I’ll go anywhere. Anywhere with you.” Pack up all your shit and put it in the back. Maybe the miles will make up for the things you lack. I’ll go anywhere. Anywhere with you. Cruising 95 like we’ve got nothing to lose. I'm praying to the headlights like I prayed to you. Before I found you. Roll the windows down. Kill the radio. I’d rather hear the wind than hear that song I’m supposed to know by some fucking bro. You tell me that forever couldn’t come too soon. I wanna lose my mind in a hotel room with you. Anywhere would do. I'm siting in the bath like it's pouring rain. You call me from the hall just to say my. Say my. Say my name. I’ll go anywhere with you. I’ll go anywhere with you. Anywhere with you. Anywhere with you. Anywhere with you. I’ll go anywhere with you. Would you tell me if I ever started holding you back? Would you talk me off the guard rail of my panic attack? Look me straight in my center and tell me from the heart. Are you ready to start? Are you ready to start? Are you ready to start? You tell me that forever couldn’t come too soon. If I’m gonna lose my mind, I’m gonna lose it with you. You tell me you want everything. You want it fast. But all I’ve ever wanted is to make something fucking last. I’ll go anywhere. I’ll go anywhere. I’ll go anywhere with you. Anywhere with you. Anywhere with you. Anywhere with you.

Horses

Watch you go. Cross the street. Like a dream. Out my window. Sucking nicotine down my throat. Thinking of you giving head. You said you wondered 'bout the world. Well I have since I was a little girl. Watching white birds graze the hedge. Took me all this long to figure out. It's not worth it if I can't touch the ground. Can’t believe I let it turn me 'round. Turn me onto you. I see horses running wild. I wish I could feel like that for just a minute. Would you come with me or would you resist? Oh could you just give in. I see horses and I know there’s a way. I hear thunder oh and I start to break. Would you come with me or would you resist? Oh could you just give in. I believe in you. But the truth about dreams is they’re a feeling that meets you in between what you want and what you really need. Took me all this long to figure out. It's not worth it if I can't touch the ground. Can't believe I let you turn me 'round. Waiting up for you. I see horses running wild. I wish I could feel like that for just a minute. Would you come with me or would you resist? Oh could you just give in. I see horses and I know there’s a way. I hear thunder oh and I start to break. Would you come with me or would you resist? Oh could you just give in. I can't wait up for you today. I’m leaving. Are you coming with me? Can't hold me back. Can't hold me back. Im going I’m going I’m going I’m going away. I see horses running wild. I wish I could feel like that for just a minute. Would you come with me or would you resist? Oh could you just give in. I see horses and I know there’s a way. I hear thunder oh and I start to break. Would you come with me or would you resist? Oh could you just give in. Oh could you just give in. Give in give in give in give in.

Be Cool

Sick of the sound of self-importance. I fucked off for a month of two. Needed a summer just to be a teenager. Drunk on the month of June. And you saved me when you said, “Be cool. Keep your friends around if you try to slow it down. I promise I will be there to cover you with love. Just be cool.” Caught myself thinking we could live forever. But maybe for just one night we could listen to Britney. Overload the speakers. Just keep telling me it’ll turn out alright. “Be cool. Keep your friends around if you try to slow it down. I promise I will be there to cover you with love. Just be cool.” When you feel you start to fake it. Like it's blurring 'round the lines. When your vision starts to shake. You turn to me. You said, “Be cool. Keep your friends around if you try to slow it down. I promise I will be there to cover you with love. Just be be be be. Be cool.” Cool. Cool. I promise you I’ll be there to cover you with love. Just be cool. Cool.

Shatter

Coming up for oxygen. The world’s the same, but something’s changing. You see it on the street again. Lighting up the strangest faces. And it feels like that. Sweeter than the best you’ve ever had. And oh it takes me back. To being 16, dancing like you’re under attack. I don’t really care if it nearly kills me. I’d give you the world if you asked me to. I could break a glass just to watch it shatter. I’d do anything just to feel with you. Right. You alright. Alright. I see it in your teeth again. There's a tightness when you’re smiling. It creeps in through the backdoor when you play pretend and break down crying. And it feels like that. 'cause you’re wishing you had something you never had. But now we’re going back to being 16, flying like you’ll never collapse. I don’t really care if it nearly kills me. I’d give you the world if you asked me to. I could break a glass just to watch it shatter. I’d do anything just to feel with you. I don’t really care if it nearly kills me. Feel it in my fists like it's time to move. Quick, give me a glass. I'ma watch it shatter. I’d do anything just to feel with you. You right. You alright. You. I know there’s people everywhere with injustice on their lips. And there’s this open wound bleeding between my hips. And I’d be lying if I told you I wasn’t scared. I’m scared I’m scared I’m scared I’m scared. I’m scared. And I’ve got all this anger trapped so deep inside that started burning the summer my heroes died. And I just wish that I could hear a new Bowie again. Again again again again. Again again again again again. Again again again again again again. I don't really care if it nearly kills me. I'd give you the world if you asked me to. I could break a glass just to watch it shatter. I'd do anything just to feel with you. I don't really care if it nearly kills me. I'd give you the world if you wanted to. I can feel it in my fists, it's time to shatter. I'd do anything just to feel with. With you. I'd do anything just to feel. With you. I'd do anything just to feel. With you.

Begging for Rain

The more you wait, the more you break. The longer that it takes to undo. All the knots that you’ve been tying on cherry stems and black barbed wire, too. You work all day to find religion. And end up standing in your kitchen. Wondering 'bout the way it's always been. I’m a firefighter and I cant stop it. They fan the flames higher than rockets. And leave you standing on an open plane. Begging for rain. Begging for rain. I feel it all and I can't stop it. Wish that I could turn my faucet loose on all my friends who keep on calling. Like nothing’s wrong and asking me what’s new. I try my best to not be bitter. Give my rage a babysitter. Stop waiting for the adults to come home. It's a firework and you can't stop it. I’m cutting holes in all the pockets of everyone that’s calling me insane. Waiting for rain. Begging for rain. I keep waiting. I keep waiting. I keep waiting.

I've Got a Friend

Who would’ve said — when I met you at a party, everyone was drunk on 40s, just south of Stuyvesant — that I would get to know your sister. Bring her with us every time that we were in Austin. If only she knew what it's like to see the world with someone who is excited by everything. Fashion sense of a king living in the 15th century. Oh I’ve got a friend who’s been there through it all. Masturbates to Rob Pattinson staring at the wall. I’ve got a friend who’s tangled up inside. Tried to hold her hand the day her mother died. I’ve got a friend who’s been there through it all. Talked me out of jail, talked me off the panic rail. I got a friend, I got a friend. And she’s got a friend, too. Any other day we’d be hanging out together, no matter the weather. She’d make us listen to Dolly or else. When I’m far away, like I seem to be a lot, I miss the days we’d spend smoking pot. If only she knew what it's like to see the world through someone who isn’t afraid of anything. Laughs about everything. I’d like to see the one that thinks they could change her mind. I’ve got a friend. who’s been there through it all. When I lose my shit, she’s the first person I call. I got a friend who handed me a shot. And taught me to dance when the love inside was not. I got a friend who’s smarter than anything. Wears all her mothers rings. Stands for the right things. I got a friend I got a friend I got a friend. And she’s got a friend, too. I got a friend. Oh I’ve got a friend. And she’s got a friend, too. I got a friend. She’ll be there in the end. When we’re old and we’re dead oooh. And she’s got a friend, too.

Honey

Oh I believe in the way I loved you then. And the way you held my hand. It wasn’t circumstance. Or anomaly. But power’s about when you place your bets and choose your friends. Oh I believe I could have been your girl for about a hundred years. Oh in another world. But I had to leave. And now when you hear my name, oh does it break your shit? Or do you run away? I started out trying to do what's right. Lost it all in the middle of the night. If you’re wondering what you should do with your life, honey if I knew I would tell you, wouldn’t I? Oh I believe we’ve all been here before; that time's a memory, and its an open door. But tell me what happens when you’re on the other side. Is there a party somewhere? Or is it a fucking riot? I started out trying to do what's right. Lost it all in the middle of the night. If you’re wondering what you should do with your life, honey if I knew I would tell you, wouldn’t I? Honey Honey honey honey. Honey honey Honey honey. If there’s an answer oh tell me. Is there an answer? Honey. I started out trying to do what's right. Lost it all in the middle of the night. If you’re wondering what you should do with your life, honey if I knew I would tell you, wouldn’t I? I started out trying to do what's right. Lost it all in the middle of the night. If you’re wondering what you should do with your life, honey if I knew I would tell you, wouldn’t I?

Symphony

Hold on baby. Don't break maybe. We could spend the night or an hour watching your favorite show. Take my hand now. Don't speak so loud. Try your best to forget the world outside your window. And be here with me. There's no where else I'd rather be. And there's a symphony going on inside my head. I know it's time to rest. Can you live like nothing's left? Forget your emptiness. Take a breath. I’ll tell your friends. Come over when they can find the time to walk the mile down the road. We can start a band that only plays living room shows. And you’ll be there with me. Theres no where else I’d rather be. There's a symphony going on inside my head. I know there's emptiness making its way through your chest. But can you bury it? Take a breath. I know there's times when I can be a lot to handle, and I'm working with a therapist to take care of it. Keep coming back to me when I keep pushing you away. It's not something I mean to do; it just comes off that way. Don't want to think about a world where there’s not your face. Can't erase. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you. For you. For you. So just be here with me. There's no where else I'd rather be. And there’s a symphony every time you look my way. I know we’re under-slept. And life’s a promise that never ends. But you can handle it. Take a breath. Take a breath.

Different Kind of World

One last song. I’ll sing a song, and make it a song for peace. Though we all may carry on, may we do so decently. My hands are shaking. Palms are sweating. Thinking bout the state of the world. But when we’re riding all together, I’m a different kind of girl. One last song. I’ll write a song, and know that it's for you. That new friend I haven’t met. With a different point of view. My knees are aching. Back is breaking. Thinking 'bout the state of the world. When we’re all riding all together, it's a different kind of world. When we’re riding all together, I’m a different kind of girl.