Words

 

When I’m angry or in love, I feel it in my teeth.
Strange harmonic buzzing.
Cuts through my hands.
My jaw.
My breast bone.
For a long time I fought it. Resisted. Held up my fists.
Tried to hold the current. Foolish.
I found peace in distortion. A chaos I could control.
Turned the drums up real loud hoping they could shock me back in.
Break the numbness.
Let the bright lights drag me out.
Do you fear what’s underneath? Is your jaw wound tight?
Do you ever want to bite?
And what if you did?
Sink your gums into a shoulder.
Of a lover.
Of a day.
Of a year.
We were 18. We were 23. I’m 27 now.
Here’s all I have. It’s yours to take.
Love. Hate. Anger. Feral joy.
This is the story of what happened when I finally gave in.

Can you let go?
Can you feel it all?
Can you –

Maggie Rogers, 2022


 

Want Want

You’re better than the man I knew when we were in a band and you wouldn’t flinch and wouldn’t make a move. Try to forget the rest as I watch you get undressed. Pray to god this won’t be a mess. And I keep running away, but when I leave you pull me in again. Oh, here we go. I hold my breath and count the times I walked my feet up to the line. Oh, we both know. If you want want what you want want then you want it. Can’t hide what you desire once you’re on it. Can’t fake what you can’t break up with ooh. If you understand that a few years won’t erase it. Might die if you can’t live just to taste it. Want want what you want want then you want it and I want you. Oh, can we take this slow? Everybody’s always known, but I didn’t want to admit that when we’re cheek to cheek I feel it in my teeth and it’s too good to resist. And I keep running away but when I leave you pull me in again. Oh, we both know. If you want want what you want want then you want it. Can’t hide what you desire once you’re on it. Can’t fake what you can’t break up with. If you understand that a few years won’t erase it. Might die if you can’t live just to taste it. Want want what you want want then you want it. If you want want what you want want then you want it. Can’t hide what you desire once you’re on it. Can’t fake what you can’t break up with. If you understand that a few years won’t erase it. Might die if you can’t live just to taste it. Want want what you want want then you want it. Oh and if you got a moment I want on it. Want want on it on it and if you got another hour I want all of it. Don’t want to wait another moment. I want on it want want on it on it. Don’t want to wait another hour I want all of it. Want. Want. Want.

 

That's Where I Am

I found a reason to wake up. Coffee in my cup. Start a new day. Wish we could do this forever and never remember mistakes that we made. I told you I loved you when we were just friends. You kept me waiting and I hated you then. Gave it a few years. You settled your debts, but I never got over the secrets I kept. It all works out in the end. Wherever you go that’s where I am. Boulders turn into sand. Wherever you go thats where I am. Now when I wait in your doorway covered in flowers, I think of her. The woman that you once dated. I couldn’t relate to her glitter and furs. Who were you then? And who is she now? Did she know that we were together somehow? You never touched me, but I felt you everywhere. It all works out in the end. Wherever you go that's where I am. Even boulders turn into sand. Wherever you go that's where I am. No I’ll never find another. No one else can do it better. When we’re together it feels like heaven. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. No, I’ll never find another. No one else can do it better. When we’re together it feels like heaven. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. It all works out in the end. Wherever you go that's where I am. Even boulders turn into sand. Wherever you go that's where I am. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. That's where I am. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. That's where I am. You’re the only one I ever wanted. All I ever really wanted was you. That's where I am.